This photo makes me shudder! In 2006 when I met then boyfriend Jon. I was skinny. I worked out regularly and in the shape of my life at 26. I fell in love instantly and we moved in three months later, engaged 18 months and got married ofter two years together. I was so happy and content with my relationship that I thought nothing about sharing his portions and his penchant for sweet things and takeaways that I put on in the 5 years we have been together 4 stone. 4 STONE???!!!
It felt like it slowly crept up on me, i didn't notice it and did not think anything of wearing my size 16 than size 14. I've always had a large booty you see.
Like in the past when i've been a little heavy I turned to weight watchers. I went and always had a good first week loss then celebrate with something naughty and then feel bad when the scales were not as good as the previous week. This would send me into an vicious circle of eating to feel better about the weight gain, feeling bad about eating and the guilt of a gain on the scales. Often I would just avoid going to avoid the scales and guilt. I'd promise myself that I could lose double the next week if I start being good on monday. That was the monday that it was someones birthday in the office and cream cakes all around. yep you've guessed it straight back on the binge. A couple of weeks later i would sheepishly return to WW heavier and vowing never to do the same thing again. I would spend at least £20 on the latest gadgets to make sure i got all the help. I did this horrid cycle about 20 times. I would even go to different groups so the leader would not give me that look... the look of 'I know you've eaten your body weight in carbs and cheese this week'.....
In February 2012 I had my son Bobby. He is the apple of my eye! I gained three stone during pregnancy and lost most of it quickly thru breast feeding and running around. My body has changed beyond recognition. I joined slimming world to lose the last of the weight (1 stone 4lbs in total) but went back to work in September 2012 and guess what? Life took over and I quit :-(
In November 2012 I found out that I am expecting another little one. The party line on this one is 'Unplanned but not unwelcome'! It was a total shock! I was determined to stay healthy and I am following Slimming world at the Hyde out, Stevenage group throughout my pregnancy. My aim is to stay healthy and give my baby the best start. After my little princess is born I will be back on my weight loss journey.
This blog is my journal of my journey. One to a slimmer healthier Me. Everyone has there story to tell and there way of getting through life. This is mine.
Please share yours.
Big hugs
Katie xxx
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